Experience

Peeps say you'll know everything once you get experiences
True enough!!
Yet I don't even know why there's still have stupid peep who don't want to accept the facts and anyhow blame other peep or even teammates (-_-")

Seriously, as a side observer and player
I want to ask, do you ever know what is called facts and teamwork?
Ya, teamwork~ We heard that a lot and still they are peep who know how to being a selfish arse...

I'm not mad but in fact I've underestimated you once again..
We seek for improvement from every angle of us..
No, we don't know ourselves getting any improves or not..
It should be judged by other peep..
So don't get yourself over-excited...
For me, every since I know you until now~ You're still not changing yourself in an inch..
So don't spread to other peep that how awesome you're...
That's your world..
Don't always dream <3
We live in real world not virtual..
If future creates a virtual reality world, I'll go for sure..

Learn to become a kind peep...
Beat me if you can
Coz so far I'm the kindest and peace guy I've ever seen :P
I seek for peace, not wars..
If you tend to come with your fist, then I shall devour you and lapse in the hell (^_^)

One more thing..
Don't judge people with your own standard. 

Weak

Have you felt that yourself are the weakest?
I felt that I'm just a retard who gave up on everything other than my own life.
Every efforts that I've spent... and in the half way I gave up.. lol
Every time I see people can do something I can't. I always feel shocked and impressed...

Well... Actually people have their own abilities... For both strong and weakness...
From our side, maybe we're just saw his/her strength...but what if it's a weak side?
There's where climax always appear...
I have a lot fears since I was small...
So it's quite a big deal that affected the current me...
At least I accept the fact.. and continue live on...
One day.... or maybe...my potential will be revealed...
I really hope for that.. :D 

One shall never take things lightly...
It won't be end too soon...
A humiliation, I expect...

Side Images

If real world shares connection with the virtual parts....
How amazing it is...
Unfortunately no...
Everything inside virtual are just images...
Things you can see by your eyes doesn't mean it is belongs to real...
We never expect what will happen during future, we just predicted...

What human doesn't like to face, they will face in the reality no matter what...
That's a fact of this Reality world...
How many people... desire to live inside Virtual world?
Everything is impossible in this Reality....
Absolute inverse...

Human, never understand....
Although I'm one of them, yet I can't understand as well...
Too much emotions...
No passions of freedom....

My wishes....
Shall hidden in the mist of the grand sea...
No matter how desperate you wish for...
Will any wishes will be granted? 

The game being...

Game beings...
I wish to end it right now...

For being a defensive unit...
I have no right to judge it...

We need to see through ourselves....
There are winner and also losers as well....

Win or lose...
I don't care......

If we know where is our wrong point location...
Hope we know how to solve this miserable problem...

From now on...
Defensive unit shall awaits patiently....

Day 6492nd : The Night That Awakens..

It would be a freaking joke if I said I seriously counted the day by using a calculator...
I never expected, I've come to this world for 6492 days...
That's quite a huge number.... I guess?
Well, there were a lot people who came earlier than me for a distance of days...
Days passed without giving any notices...
When is the day that comes our life to an ending?
And actually... is that really an ending to us?
Or just a farewell from this world?

If I never mistaken about this,
Science says only Knowledge can proves us about these....
What the hell does Science related to these anyway?
There are a lot people who live in this world with us...
Although they look the same like us...
But each has different feelings....
Everyone has his/her own motivation to something since they are small....

What I remembered was my beginning stage until now....
A dream for future?
What will you be in the future?
Nobody knows....
Most of the people will say it depends on how hard you work for yourself during your premature session...
Yes, few days ago I heard someone around my age starting to fight for their future....
Sharing some information to us about his progression and a lot life process about his case..
What I learnt from him is actually nothing...
But I do admire his will against something that he desires...

The main thing is....
He says all the people in this world wants an absolute freedom.In this world, everything you desire...
Money always come first...
Without money, one will never achieve something that they really want to be...
Yes, that is Financial Freedom...
By just judge "Freedom" this word,
It's a paradise for everybody...
But... how many people really do that?
Rare enough.

I want to highlight something about "Financial Freedom"
If all the people really succeed this concept...
Then the developments of this world will not be improving...
If money are really easy to flow into a pocket...
Why there are people who are in poor condition? 
I admit it's correct for people who desire to enjoy "Financial Freedom"
But it is impossible to believe everyone can do it....

If it goes well....
Then our life doesn't have any awesome things to be happened...
I'm a guy who just desire my own happiness...
What I want...
I already have now...
But that is not all...
There are a lot of things I have not discover yet...
I do not request for being "Financial Freedom" for my future...
But I want to try something fresh about something interesting...
At least my life will never being dull....

Indeed, I have my own opinion..
And whenever there are any opinion opposes mine..
I'll just ignore or judge about it...
What I expect is logical and suit for myself...
Because no matter how awesome you are...
I'm sure that there will be a limit in your future...
That's why I never get impressed by anything unless they are really awesome...
Sentences cannot prove anything...
Do it with your bare hands...
I dislike a lot of people in this world...
But it doesn't mean I don't want communicate with them...

Why I dislike them?
Because they talk without using their brains...
Words are powerful.
Yet it's very dangerous...  
People never understand when they hurt someone...

Talk so much for what actually?
You already spoil your own image in my mind 
You disgust me seriously....
After so many days I've met you and yet your mind are still that immature...
Well, it's none of my business...
My words will always hidden in somewhere in my brain until there's someone willing to reveal it...
What I see, does mean what I know...
Maybe I have mistaken something about you?
I don't know and I don't really getting interested about you...
It's already over....


有改变还是没改变...就看你自己吧
因为我根本就不能证明你到底变了没有...
不过也没办法...我也不明白以前的我在想什么...
何况说未来的我呢? 
说真的...那就话说了出来...真的是有点后悔...
就算给我第2次机会...
我看我还是回去属于我自己的世界吧...
我的心,没办法了解一些我读不明白的董事...
希望....不...一点都没有希望...
如果历史重演....狠狠地揍我一顿吧 

Beyond my own lights
Last word
Just shut the fuck up about your bullshit-ing on somewhere I can see. 

Realistic

Have you ever know?
How realistic is the reality world is?

Do you ever know,
Snows will not come when there is no cold season?
If reality aren't realistic, a lot of virtual scene will appear.....
There are a lot of people who can't live in a reality world,
although they are currently lively in this world...

They pick their choice as they will only stick to the virtual parts of this world...
Many may say "If you live in a reality world, then why not you join to the realistic side?"
I am a person who lies between Reality and Virtual world...
My body is real but my mind is full of virtual image...


People are always like a mirror, it's like a weather...
We will not know when their mood expressed in what kind of condition..
Any condition will be in a probability to be happened...

People always think that when a statement is false...
They think it's wrong...
For some reason...
There are people who think about a statement cannot be judge neither true nor false....
People always make mistake...





















I admit I really like these two sentences...
Becoz it's from Shiori ^_^ <3
Well, her statement from my opinion is true...
If you had done a mistake...
You will never know how to solve that mistake...
It's because one shall never understand what is the thing he is doing...
Even though it is neither success nor failed...
Judge your mistake from people's mistaken
In order to acknowledge more about the reason of failing something...

But until then, me myself still do not really understand this statement...
I want to understand, but I do not have a chance since I always think people are way better than me....
Until now, I am still unable to confirm my own real aim...
Things are happened too quickly...
Emotions remains...
A lot dark scenes happen...
I don't really mind...
People always have multiple emotions...
They always hidden their original face...
Although I can see through...
But still, I don't like them as well....
What is the point of hiding your real emotion?
Nowadays I have started to show my own emotion...
The hybrid emotion between active and passive...
I prefer everything being soft...
But in this realistic world...
It is impossible to have this kind of life...
I've feel this world is quite pathetic....

Family, friends, enemy and those who act just like friends....
From that day, I've told myself...
I'll become a realistic person in friendship system...
To tell the truth, I don't like to cooperate the facts I don't like...
Why would I force myself to go into a dark abyss?
In this realistic world, being realistic is just such a common phrase.....
Things I cannot chase up, I won't chase up...
I do not mind I don't have many friends...
Because only pure heart are meant to be friends...
You hid your personalities, then I'll be the one who reveal it...
You judge me, I won't judge you with cheap style.