Yep, it's October folks.
It seems my plans for future are in developing...
Yeah so far there are some changes between me myself in years ago and current.
Well I finally know what's going on about me so I'm actually quite curious what will I do for the days going on~
All rightie, to be honest. After since I decided to enchant my body to be a better shape, I've obtain tons of advice from many of my close friends.
Like, I should start get moving to my dreams as soon as possible.
At least you had do something!! Therefore there's progress of your goal route. Here the positive comments, what about negative comments?
Nah I don't think you should start to move it so soon since you don't have a stable income and yet you're too young to decide such path since you're still studying in a tertiary education industry.
It seems my plans for future are in developing...
Yeah so far there are some changes between me myself in years ago and current.
Well I finally know what's going on about me so I'm actually quite curious what will I do for the days going on~
All rightie, to be honest. After since I decided to enchant my body to be a better shape, I've obtain tons of advice from many of my close friends.
Like, I should start get moving to my dreams as soon as possible.
At least you had do something!! Therefore there's progress of your goal route. Here the positive comments, what about negative comments?
Nah I don't think you should start to move it so soon since you don't have a stable income and yet you're too young to decide such path since you're still studying in a tertiary education industry.
Such hurt, so much bad comments.
Well, the real me aka my mind is currently thinking which path is the best for me to continue my dream. Yes, I'm desperate and I wanted to be a pianist for most of the times. Because of I'm a lack of confident and used to be a shut-in person in the house for a quite long time. It's been 18 years I guess. I'm actually tried to blame my parents because they are not really that supportive us to do anything we like. We're fixed to be some specific jobs that always mentioned in the school. Well, I seriously not interested on those. I rather prefer to play piano/keyboard all the time for my entire life. It's much better to be in some industry and work like a robot. NO!! Like hell I would do that. So sometimes, I'll be mad at my parents because they didn't even ask us what we like. I'm kinda regret for staying inside the house without knowing the world news for all the time. Why would they prefer to let us stay inside the house? Why don't you communicate with your children first? Seriously...
By flipping the pictures about the previous me, I see nothing. Just some fake emotions reveal from the picture. We kids are not happy because of something that parents can't even understand what are they doing. They think they always right. That's why I'm a bit felt like I'm forced to be a shut-in person rather to hang out with friends.
Seriously, I don't really want to blame them for crafting me as the previous me. Everyone should change when the times come. Ever since I joined my college life, I'm lucky to meet some brats that used to encourage me to do something I like. In combination of some who always have "future minded" people's advice, I've finally stand up and steps on the first platform to my goals. Yes, the current me is yet imperfect but it's improved a lot compared to the previous me. I am trying to draw out all of my potentials in these years to prove that I'm not that fail as a normal human. Each human should have their own specialities. Draw it out bitch! Even you do not know which is it. Just fucking do everything until you like that thing. Currently, I like basketball, jogging, playing "Love Live". As usual my favourite of favourite is still piano and keyboard. I don't know why but my fingers are just always want to try to feel piano. Some of my friends always tell me that it's too late to learn due to age problem. I am going to say that, "Bitch please" I don't believe such theory, what I believe is in hardwork and potential. If these simple terms are unable to understand. Then what are we living for? You live in a world without try to achieve anything? Try to be a completely normal human in the world? Come on =_=".
Think positively, don't because of other retards' comments caused our dream ruined. I'll continue to pray and hope that one day I'll be the best of the best as a World Ranking Pianist. That's my greatest dream.
I had once live in a world that I'm not feeling that my body is controlled by me. I don't like that so I turn it down and struggle to control back. Now I have the chance to make a turnaround. Why not to spend all your best to do it? I'm normal but it doesn't mean I'm not unique.
I shall be the one who conquer the hatred soul that hidden inside my heart all the time.
Anyway reports for my current condition:
By flipping the pictures about the previous me, I see nothing. Just some fake emotions reveal from the picture. We kids are not happy because of something that parents can't even understand what are they doing. They think they always right. That's why I'm a bit felt like I'm forced to be a shut-in person rather to hang out with friends.
Seriously, I don't really want to blame them for crafting me as the previous me. Everyone should change when the times come. Ever since I joined my college life, I'm lucky to meet some brats that used to encourage me to do something I like. In combination of some who always have "future minded" people's advice, I've finally stand up and steps on the first platform to my goals. Yes, the current me is yet imperfect but it's improved a lot compared to the previous me. I am trying to draw out all of my potentials in these years to prove that I'm not that fail as a normal human. Each human should have their own specialities. Draw it out bitch! Even you do not know which is it. Just fucking do everything until you like that thing. Currently, I like basketball, jogging, playing "Love Live". As usual my favourite of favourite is still piano and keyboard. I don't know why but my fingers are just always want to try to feel piano. Some of my friends always tell me that it's too late to learn due to age problem. I am going to say that, "Bitch please" I don't believe such theory, what I believe is in hardwork and potential. If these simple terms are unable to understand. Then what are we living for? You live in a world without try to achieve anything? Try to be a completely normal human in the world? Come on =_=".
Think positively, don't because of other retards' comments caused our dream ruined. I'll continue to pray and hope that one day I'll be the best of the best as a World Ranking Pianist. That's my greatest dream.
I had once live in a world that I'm not feeling that my body is controlled by me. I don't like that so I turn it down and struggle to control back. Now I have the chance to make a turnaround. Why not to spend all your best to do it? I'm normal but it doesn't mean I'm not unique.
I shall be the one who conquer the hatred soul that hidden inside my heart all the time.
Anyway reports for my current condition:
1st of October,
-Semester 5 of Electronic Engineering (Year 2)
-Struggling
-Semester 5 of Electronic Engineering (Year 2)
-Struggling
-81~82kg so far
-Planning to do something extreme before this year ends
-Planning to buy a keyboard for myself as birthday present
-Decide to challenge something new
-Want a stable relationship with family
-Gain more knowledge about the world
-Try to be independant
-Ain't got time to give shits to the people who're wasting my time
-Try to be cool
-Need more energy
-ANIMES!!!
That's all for today, so on!
Road to the best of me!
I shall carry all the burden that caused by me myself from now on.
Road to the best of me!
I shall carry all the burden that caused by me myself from now on.
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