Re-Clashed.......

I think I'm getting more 38 already....
Keep wanted to care other's things but mine things?
Ignored =)

Well, I had my re-clashed today.....
After Chemistry, the additional period....
Mr Y.K so bagus, belanja Vg, Jia Seng and me for da ice-creams...
Then we chatted a lot.......
I think these 3 are the only 3 I can chat deeply....

Am I a cool guy?...
I don't know.... maybe it is....
Maybe it's just like my potential....
"A silence keep more friends away"
Well, that's my style... And I can't control it....

It's like a soul which is located inside the Gate of Darkness...
Loneliness.... Horrors.... Blindness..... Evils.....
I like to be alone.... but not too lonely...

Sometimes... I felt like I'm abandoned...
But who cares?....
Nobody cares......

A heart without blood.....
It's just like self-destructed.....
No more vibrates of Destiny....
No more melody of Heaven....
Only have Darkness of Hell....

I'm a guy who keep tolerate the things that made me increase my selfish-ness....
Why should I do like that?
I don't know.... I even can't control....
That's not the thing I wanted....
The more I tolerated....
The rage is awakened soon.....

Luckily....
A heavenly Melody is my only potion to cure my pain....
With them.....
I'll be a unlimited Nobody....
Who only survive in the mist of Illusion....

May Illusion rebound to create a new Era....
"I'm a bound of my Illusion...
Darkness clashed in my Heart...
Until It become Zilch...
With the power....
So I pray....
Unlimited Illusions....."

I may live with the Illusions rather than this world =)

Mist Of Illusions...
Unlimited Blade Works - Fate/ Stay Night

Someday... the Dream will end...

Someday...the Dream will End.... Is it really true? 
In my life.... I dream a lot things....
Such as.... Futures.... Impossible image.... 
Actually.... My life... is ordinary...
Don't have such of incredible scene...
The thing that I keep dream... It's just a dream.....

Am I born to be a ordinary kid?...
I want to get through my life and become a person who different....
A person who have hidden potential....
A person... who have a dream for it....
I am the one who still believe that I can do it....
Would it be true??....

I have my own interested on my potential....
And I believe I can do it....
But too bad....
There's don't have a such thing in Malaysia.....
Is it my dream are.... getting blur?....
Am I felled into a Mist of Unknown?...
I failed?...

It should be.....
When I was 10.... I ever thought... 
But.... I'm a bit foolish....
Foolish until... I can't camourflage myself.....
Well... My only dream.... Is hopeless....

It tells me....
Actually....
Even thought it is a dream....
But someday....
Dream also will be ended.... 

New Route? New Challenge?

Geez..... Why would so many complicated things joined my life?
Life is so..... Terror... I can feel it...
Never Mind... At least that's still have some fun place.....
I don't mind anything.....if you wan scold, complaint or what... As your wish~ 
I won't brother you =,=" Just don't get my ass off can already.....

Recently at recess, I always went to Library...
For what? Of course for my fren lah~..... and also to see "her" daily moves
But what I get... is nothing @,@.....
Ahhh Geezzzzzzzz..... I'm in a feeling again and again~ 
But this time really funny....
Liked a stranger but same in school....
What does it means?....
I have no ideas....

The thing I only know.....
If I wan to conquer her....
That's only a few things I need to do....
1:Stay own style
2:Act as her friends....
3:Routes of course...
4:Keep myself fit....

The damn pity things for me is....
I need to keep fit...
That's my own aim....
So I pray...
Anyhow...
Before 2012 comes...
I must kick 10KGs  out of my lifes....
That's me...
Watashiwa Chow Kun =D

Hope....
Everything is good....

(= All In Good Time =)

Holding on to this feeling that I cannot yield

Still, I have walked this far I didn’t seem to advance much But I can feel the dream carried by the wave of time

Tracing back to the distant memories

feel I was shining with things that were not to be Going beyond those dazzling days

Over here, now

Where it is not the beginning or the end or anywhere From here We will again walk to discover those new dreams

Only wanting to convey my feelings

I tried to link up my “Selfishness” and “wishes” Unable to choose That is why my voice didn’t express those words which disappeared today too

My shallow breathing returns

I said, “Up till now it is great” There is no reason to give up, in order to go towards hope

Over here, now

Even if it is the end or the start, in a place that is anywhere From here We will again walk to discover those new dreams

From here

If the present is full of enjoyable days, it is not here Many times we walked out To discover a new dream

From here we will again walk towards

Without seeing anything else, we will meet up in these confusing days It is only seemed repetitive, but it is different We will discover a new dream

We're the PRS..... The funniest moment.... The happiest moment and.... The most touching moment ever....
P.R.S...... The one combine each others are.... "Immune" 

Cleanest Route =)

Today, I finally got something to write in my dusty blog....
Haha I guess rare got people who will visit this blog except for someone??

Ok..... Start from our Camp at Bentong first....
I...ChowSee kena picked as a leader of the Group 8....
Well I'm really "damn" anxious while Victor and Aunty Jun Ting pick me as leader.....
I worry and worry and worry..........
But... After 3days 2night camp..... I found out that.... Actually.... leader is nothing =D.....
Why?? Because.... leaders are peoples too.... They got heart... They got eyes.... They got minds....
But in a group..... Of course leader is an important roles for all of the group members....
During the Ice Breaking event.... I'm really impressed someone... lol...
A girl who tight my hand without any "lubang"....
When she does that....My mind pop out something that make me very sensitive.... But I don't mind...
Because Chun Qiap at beside me... At LEAST..... a boy is beside then I won't feel something anymore......

Ok...... The's a special for me at Ice Breaking Seasion.... Let's jump to Midst of the Camp...

Ok and Ok again..... EXPERT mode..... Actually is ok only..... For those are the people who terpaksa join NS only they will feel it.....
I'm already feel it 1 day before I prepare to wait NS.....
Actually is fun....
Becoz that's a life challenge for me......
Pass through anything by use a good way, and common sense....
I have an example.... compare to me and a guy who are PPS.....
We both are big size(But he's bigger =P)
He's a bastard which scare a lot things....
But me? Never scare.... and never want to give up.....
I'm challenge it..... there are 12stages that is hard for me....
At the 1st stage already shown how hard is it....
In 80 of peoples... I think only got a few will done it.......
I thought I can't.... but I never give up.... I passed it....
That's a proven for me that I CAN DO IT....


Ok Overall for this camp..... I rate 8/10 ba =)
Last year camp.... 9/10...
This year I not really feel nice because of injured and stomachache while walking around the area.....
Pity me ==".........


The words I most want to say to my Group 8 before we leave the camp but I never said it....
Feel a bit regret.... But is okay.... next year we still have the chance.... But for Aunty Jun Ting and Maggie..... can't join the camp anymore..... So I SALUTE them.... Haha~~

In here... I think I can type it out....
Hope someone can see this....
"In this group..... 8 for Fortune..... Fortune for luck... Luck for fates.... Fates for happiness... Happiness for Forever......."
Because? We ARE in THIS GROUP 8 FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!~~~~

Ｋｅｅｐ Ｉｎ Ｔｏｕｃｈ ＝）

人生.....就因为认识了几位朋友....就这样..整个人都变了....

今天..是我在4 Cempaka里感觉到最失礼的一次....失礼的人不是我啦....
看见他....坐在我的面前....讲麦一些糊里糊涂的东西.....
心想着“XXX,你这样下去的话...我就不信你不得罪到人”
心态一时好一时坏....控制不好自己的火气....怎样喜欢/保护一个人呢?
有时候~~~
你真的是一个白痴.....为了要showoff自己.....什么东西都能说出来.....
有时候~~~
你让我想吐....真不明白你想怎样......还说自己很X.....
要X都还没轮到你咯==”
在你面前的笑.....只是外表.....但是心里觉得你很笨....你很瞎...
若你觉得你错了....就坦白点....别说到你对完这样.....
人家觉得你强，但我觉得你是没脑....
人家说你大，但我说你像个小孩子.....
人家不想跟你吵架，但你偏偏想闹大?

如果你叫君子....我可能会呕到不像样=)
如果你真的很X....人家会察觉到...不用你来宣传.....
如果你想考好试.....就别做些愚蠢的事.....
如果你喜欢一个人.....勇敢地去爱她.......

今天我只是希望你知道你做了什么白痴的事.......没人想跟你吵架......若你真的是个君子.....那么...聪明点吧=)

我CS仔会奉陪到底
 

Long Time Ago......

Long Time Ago.....
I was a kid who dono anything =)

Long Time Ago.....

I was a kid which have a selfish style

Long Time Ago.....

I regret everything I did.....

Long Time Ago.....

I dono how to take a different with "Good" or "Bad"

Now.....

Everything changes.....

Now....

I'm the one who controling my own things.......

Now.....

Is time.....to make a decision....

Since holidays came......

I sit at a place......

With my own things.....

My heart....

My ear....

My brain......

To concentrate.......

Friends? Well......some are good....

But some....like hell....

So?

Nothing at all......

Reverse in my mind......It's telling me......"There's no nid to be vice versa......, Stay....smart"

Till the end.....

You will know =)

Day 17/2....Re-listen......

Day to day passed away......
I'm still listening my songs......-Blue Bird(Naruto Shippuden Opening Theme).....
Today......One of my friend......That he never chat with me in a long time ago......
And when Our Sejarah period arrived......our Sejarah....I know she always minat students sit back his/her own place.....So I sit back lorrr......Then.....he came and chat with me........
Myself also shocked and never realize he will come find me for a long chat.....
Well.....although I give up these 3 period to listen what teacher say.....But actually.....that 3 period.....I can learn a lot from him.......From 40cm watch him....He looks so silent.....But.....when I near him....He is a smart guy......He knows a lot than all of us......And he knows that our this 4 Cempaka is F**king LOUSY.......Yeah, yeah....Even myself complaint too.........
He said about why he so silent......why he looks so stubborn......why he looks so scary.....Well....I found out that...He's not these 3 kind of peoples at all.....All is came from.....Stress =).....He got more stress than us......becoz...He came from lower class.....Like Kemboja or somemore lar..... He say that.....We guys are truely smart......ok lar....I think so........Everybody got different "smart".....Like me....I'm smart at listen what people are saying things....And likes a lot of people's real life story.....

REST........18/2 Continue =)

Day and Days over....Rest well......

Today......Day16/2......Currently....Enjoy-ing my song.....-Grenade- Bruno Mars.....

Today at schools.....Starting feel like that my old class got over lousy.....Damn it ==".......Everyday lousy lousy lousy till I feel that I starting want to FXXK them already......
Everyday lousy ==" WTF.....altough that 1 was I already take it as my habits d....But sometimes can study please do shut up and listen.....I know you like to say....I know your mouth really like to move.....But please lar....sometimes...We really need to study....like....Add Maths, Maths, BI, LK, Phys, Chem....others you guys like lar.....Seriously....some teacher very ngam de.....
We're already Form 4 lor.....Sudah 16 liao....masih macam kiddo meh?? Mature some please......@.@........ Ok lar.....I lazy cakap banyak already....You guys want how then how lar.....My style-------->"I am a silent guy who doesn't like to dap pang".......This is my style you can't do anything on me!~
Days and days....passed....Let's see.....already passed about 6months++......Although we same class now.....But we rare chat......I dono why......why I didnt chat with her?.....Isit I don't have things to chat? Or I scare to face her.......? I really dono why.....I tot.....It's over....Who knows.......From these 6 months till now....Haven end yet....Why I always don't want to face you!?.......There got so many girls I know.....So many girls I faced.....But why always is you!? Why!!!???? I wanna know this freaking reason.... WHY???? Why I can't just forget you in my life?.......

These games never end...............

Should I end it?

Isit everything is under my own control....?

Should I.....love you once again?

How should I?

Stupid Lifes with Stupid Brains

Is English Version ^.^ Yay!!!!!
Ok~ All Cina know that our Chinese New Year is around the CORNER!!!
Wee~~ Everyone is happy!!!!
Haha But for me.....Ok lar....Chinese New Year....no some updates....
Every year come and say "Yo!!! Happy New Year!!! Take angpow and sit at there about 2/3hours~"
Well some friends are sit at there whole day =="~ I dono how they tahan the patients.....
But I can say is~ They are PRO! xD

Ok Boring are over....
Now is for "What's happening in My Life"
4 Cempaka Lifes....
still 1 word...."Lousy"!
They still like a group of kids keep noisy the whole class....
But still ok lar~
I'm that style....
At least now I silent-ed already...
Sejarah Period....>Old frens being stubborn....
Our teacher.....she called us to do a presentation....
1 of my fren....He take his pendrive for his group prepare....
Everyone was waiting.....
Then once they started....
The 1st impression for me is....I saw Qi Yi!!!!
Wow, He put those backgrounds as His team member's own pictures....
What a sakai and never ask his own teammate for taking their pictures....
I bet that his mates are DAM DULAN him!!~

Then, my 10years old friend.....He is the main stupid guy...
And dam stubborn....Coz of my fren de presentation delay-ed KH(Old friend) and his team de presentation.....
He dulan-ed.....WTF.....then he say "I donwan present liao, you all present lar"...
See!? These kind of stubborn ppls~
I hate these kind of peoples already....
Tot himself/herself sangat pro....
Walao.....you so geng? Why don't you come 4 Ang and give it a try??
You B!tch =="
These kind of peoples....
I curse them future never get good job!!

Ok....like this sin.....~

我的快乐与冷战笔记.......

永别了4 Anggerik(虽然只是隔两楼罢了，我还是会有点sad的><)
首先.....我要谢谢4 Anggerik跟我打了这3个星期的战....
谢谢你们=） 虽然只是那么的3个星期....
但是我还是叫了很多朋友....
我来说说下那几位朋友
Kai Jie(凯杰*希望我没写错)
傻傻的他，蛮搞笑的哈哈~不过认真起来会令我刮目相看
Rafiq(所谓Five Explosion的其中之一)
也是一个很会搞笑的人，喜爱唱歌的他...有时我也想跟着唱~哈哈
Kean Peng(建炳*希望我没写错）
也是一个很会搞笑的人，combo死我的他.....有时很想sai 9他~无聊到那个样子...
Kelly( Kelly Wong)
其实是她认识我，我看过她不过我不认识她（一开始）....
不错,蛮漂亮的小姐^^哈哈~有时也会大惊小怪的....
Shu Ning (Wong Shu Ning不会她的华语名！)
一开始看起来，好像是个很成熟的女生~有一天我听到她喊Eng Yaw的名字的时候，我才发先到....原来她有点野蛮的~哈哈~还装做Pengawas的好榜样=.="不用紧~我让你!~
还有很多很多朋友我认识的啦~总之....很高兴认识你们^^，虽然我已经不是4 Ang的一份子了...不过我们还是能做朋友的~所以~请大家多多指教^^

就这样先~现在是10.11分.....
虽然我是个夜鬼，但是也是要睡觉的.....因为我明天有读书!!!!
在这里....我也想向一位小姐说声对不起的.....
希望她看到啦~
......曼如....对不起.....><....
希望你能明白......





就这样~明天继续^^




第二天......Cempaka Lifes~
我进去的第一个印象是.....
好吵哦@.@....
不过不用紧....
我这个CS都习惯了的~哈哈
现在的CS要换一换了....
冷酷点.....
更加安静....
以免给人家"tersilap"
哈哈~That's Me
The ChowSee who just like to slience.......

Ok skip skip skip~~~~

现在就很想说......4 Cempaka啊~希望你们全部能成熟点咯~
你们全部好像还是个小孩子嘞！！！！
还有还有....今天也是很废下的....
一开始~我们在Physics Room里面听课..
突然有两位学长要找我.....
他叫的名字....哇老...我都听不清楚咯.....
然后有一个女生站起来.....当时我也是站起来了....
然后她看着我，我看着她....
然后她就出去咯....
出到一半就叫我"是不是叫你哦？？？"
"哇哪宅"(Hokkien)然后我就讲....
谁酱废叫到我的名酱哦！！！！！Kek Shui到！！！！！
算不管了~然后我就出去.....Oh！！原来是那个我一直叫他"Senior"的一个学长.....
还讲Puan Lim有没有讲要找你.....我砸到....
我看是Ms Lim吧.....然后另一个学长的确是"tersilap"....
哈哈哈哈~给我砸死他了xD.....
继续下去也是没什么好讲的~正常的生活.....

只不过.....现在暂时是对着两个朋友打冷战......
一男一女....Haizz ><
男的.....好像是我什么都也没做......只是过来劝罢了....他没弄过，我也不会怎样.....
女的.....就因为误会了我喜欢上她......她就开始有点....."不懂怎样解释的"...Feeling....我也不懂要怎样跟她讲.....不过那时.....她真的找错时间了.......现在很想向她"对不起".....不过....最近....都没什么看到她上线.....可能block了我吧.....
怎样都好......我想说声......
对不起, Esmond and Man Loo.......
两位好朋友......
请你们原谅我这个小白痴吧><.....
希望你们看到这一面吧.....
我这个人....要道歉.....我是说....在真实世界上.....我很少在人家面前道歉的......
还有......那个....Relationship在我的Facebook上面.....
勤快解决它就好了......
我的对象是>>>>>Yu Kit......很明显的说是开玩笑的啦=="
So.... settle? 好的~希望你们两位看到啦........

小希真的很想跟你们两位再做为好友~请你们原谅我吧><......
一个是小学认识到现在的曼如....
另一个是从补习认识了5年的Esmond.....
好战友!~请原谅！！=(

Oh对....还有.....如果你们不肯原谅我的话~你们可以继续把我当成你们的敌人....我不介意的....我只会跟你们打冷战罢了......

不过你们觉得我是酱的人么？？
好朋友嘞！做莫要继续打冷战？
我的心会一直很不安的嘞><.....
So,看了哦~请在Msn spam我下......
那么我就懂你们在想我什么了......^^

B=Brothers
S=Sisters
BFF=Best Friends Forever!!!
BF1= Best Friends
GF=Good Friends
NF1=Nice Friends
NF2=Normal Friends
OF=Ok Friends
BF2= Bad Friends

这个就是我排我所有朋友的一个表~
用了2年的时间来弄......
^.^是不是蛮无聊的嘞?
没办法~我就是酱无聊哈哈~

Test of Reality

Hey all!!! About the relationship arh! Pls do not believe it xD
I'm just test a thing only....
Obviously I caught your steps......
That's just a 50 percentage lar....
I'm not sure is....
You want to escape...
Or donwan to see....
Haha Let's try this!!!!

Stress-ed and Surrender-ed at the 12th day.......

Day 12th......
Life in 4 Anggerik.....
Is ok...Feeling nothing.....
Juz many homeworks have to do.....
*Signs* Starting feel like my Form 4 life is getting....
Worse and worst.....
From my brain......
Can shows that there are many homeworks to do....
Do till Afternoon till Now.....Night time(9.45pm)....
This is CRAZY!!

And then....more mistakes and blurs came too.....
Du 9 #$!~
I hand-ed up my Bio notes to teacher....
But when I back home I refer my teks book....
I never DONE THE JOBS....
I marked and done at there....
But I didnt write to the Notes there.....
Holy......Just the 2nd week....
Started a mistake....
Haizz....
I am stress-ed....
Add Maths....unable to settle.....
Many failed formulas.....
Bio.....can hafal....but never know the cells functions....
Haizz.....my both interested subjects......
Starting with this kind of scene.....
Haizzz.......

SURRENDER-ED!

2011的第10天

读书的第二个星期....
感觉.....
第一班....
还不错....
其实这个也不算是第一班啦~...
算是subject的排列罢了....
刚好也是Ang...
面对的同学也不一样了.....
原来大家也是那么懒惰的~一个两个都是last minute做功课的xD.....

蛮想念我们3 Dahlia做过的一切.....
我还记得...当我走进4 Cempaka的时候(多数的3 Dahlia都在那边)
全部都叫我的名字...‘昭希'这里"昭希"那里的.....
"心好感动".....也很想抱着他们说声....
谢谢你们3 Dahlia.....谢谢你们没忘记我这个Sakai
咳....可惜今年跟你们分开了~但是你们还是我的号pathner!!!
就算我去了4 Anggerik....
也并不代表我永远都跟4 Anggerik的朋友.....
你们的位子一个都可能会被取代的...
尤其是那些让我有印象深刻的朋友们...
要我写出来么?
怕她害羞罢了....xD
我们没什么讲话在学校的~
就连现在.....
我不懂她是不是忘记我了啦.....
希望不是~
也希望她看到我现在写的东西~
也comment我的post说"我没忘记你!!!"

现在的我....
也没什么要求啦....
SPM考的好就行了.....
希望能在4 Anggerik....
越快习惯越好....
因为....第一次来"Anggerik"吗~
有点怕怕的><.....
不多认识的朋友....
有点难相处哦....
不过跟她们讲讲话，她们都会笑笑下的~
看起来很可爱xDD
也不错啦~跟她们做朋友....
有些更厉害~我不认识她们不过
她们既然知道我的名字=="....
佩服她们!!

开始觉得自己有点改变了....
开始喜欢讲笑话了...
开始勤劳了...
开始懂得珍惜时间了....
开始换自己的style了...
人生有几个十年?
几时才能让我知道什么叫做"辛苦"?
现在只是所谓的"累"罢了....
也不算是什么....
我想知道"辛苦"到底是什么东东来的....
我想挑战自己....
我不想再躲着了......
已经是16歳了...
什么都要尝试下啊.......(除了坏事啦==")
我是ChowSee嘞.....
什么都敢做的!!!
就让我知道下....
学长跟学姐为什么在中4和中5那么辛苦吧....
我这个做学弟的....
都能了解他们的感受...