Sunday, December 23, 2012

What my eyes see, what my heart feels

21/12/2012...
Doomsday? Nah :)
It's Winter Solstice Day!
I've been waiting for eat my "tang yuan"
But ended up I didn't ._. .....
That day, just doing nothing....
On going my normal activities...
Listening musics..
Chatting...
And gaming as well....
Well....that night was a quite miracle night for me...
I wonder....
What did I do?
It's my first time have to think for a long time and ignored my game in the same time....
I've been thinking...
What should I do?
Why she's suddenly telling me these?...
I'm really shocked...
This is my first time...
To think hardly that I'm serious with this feeling or not...
Well, I'm still chickened because of this...
But still, I tell her... for a chance again...
I've considering to type this sentence out or not...
I've been thinking about 2 minutes about that...
I'm succeed to type out bravely...
She asked me a question...
That's a deadly question..
I wonder...
How should I answer her question...
Thanks to her, she gave me some time to consider about...

22/12/2012...
Comic Fiesta day...
Not much special..
It's just like AFA that we went at June...
I bought my Kanade's keychain and Mirai Touch and Go!
That's satisfied myself for this afternoon..
Yet, I've plan an event after our CF ends...
I thought this event will going well...
But someone spoil my mood :)
I hate complicated communications...
I hate someone never do their job well....
I hate them for acting me as their salve...
I hate them while they blame me...
Is this my fault?
I've tell someone to inform you..
But that guy never appears...
I'm also angry too, my friend...
I've trying my best to inform you all...
But ended up you guys never pick up...
I've trying to shoot someone down hardly because he pissed me off...
I hate irresponsible people
It's just sucks.
My points are wrong...
You guys always correct :)
I use my point of view wrongly?
Do I need to change a deadly view?
I got heart.
My physical view never shows my mental view
I can tell you that.
It's always opposite..
So.
No more next time.
If there's still exists...
I'm shooting you guys down.

23/12/2012... 12:36AM
I've learn a lesson...
In this world...

There's always to be not fair
But yet, there's sometime for us to be fair.
"You can be good to someone, but don't wish for someone to be good with you"
Now, I understand the new lesson...
I'll should keep this in mind...
Learn to be patient....
Learn to tolerate...
Now....
I'm still thinking the question...
Comic Fiesta day 2 is coming...
There're many events for me right now...
Should try to manage some time to answer this...
"Watashi wa anata no tame ni ochite kita"

No matter what... I'll answer it by using my pure heart.
Day will change.
People's mind will change.
When day changes, mind will changes as well.
But..
A person's loyalty, never changes
Even everything has changed...
It's time. 

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