End of Paradise

It seems...
Nothing really changed...
All rightie~ Another day had passed
Unexpected things happened too...
My activities are paused by the "Cold Wars" in my house

My days are going to end...
It's time to wake up from my sleeping brain....
Well, things are really starting to gather up...
Events, schools, freedom and more..
Ma.. can't each of you guys just come one by one?

Hmm, one question from someone..
What's a "Secret Love" aka 暗恋..
For me, secret love is just a feeling deepen in the guy/girl you like in a temporary time...
That time you will be in a higher probability to fall for him/her...
Well, people always say...
Love is blind...
When it's clear...
It's a real challenge for you and your other side...

Well "secret love" isn't a true love...
It's just show that you have your own humanity to love/like a person...
It's quite common for everyone unless they're heartless or mindless....

It's been a few month...
I've been telling myself to close one of my eye on this case..
Yes, I really did it...
In fact, I'm feeling relaxed when I'm talking to you...
My talking style is back when I'm writing any sentence to you...

That day, Neo wrote something on our group chat...
He says that you're talking to me via a status? O_O
Does that true?
Do you really mean that shy guy was me?
Well....
I don't know what to say...
But..
Love this topic doesn't suit me yet...  :3...
I still need my freedom to accomplish something....
The things that pissed me off recently...
I'm learning new things everyday...
I'm training hard everyday...
Just to prove that I'm not a coward.

I'll send my regrad with this song

Chiisana Tenohira aka Song from Clannad

Far away, far away, the sea of rice plants wavers 
Raising the rice, raising the rice, we aimed for the memory 
Do we remember the sad things that have happened before today, or have we forgotten them?
Even in this tiny hand, there could someday be strength surpassing our own 
From the day I cried beneath the ripe grapes, I started to walk 
Even if my hand is small, even if we're separated, we'll walk this road 
And on the day that will someday come, we'll store away our best memories
The seasons change; already the cold wind 
Wraps around us and sleeps inside the song of that spring
Even in this tiny hand, there could someday be strength surpassing our own 
Those wet cheeks reflected a number of smiles 
Even if my hand is small, even if we're separated, we'll walk this road 
And on the new day we too stored away our memories
Even this tiny hand will one day pass by us 
And on the new day, a new season began 

Reality

Yep, the day has finally come
It's the time for we Ex- Form 5 to get our SPM results at our secondary school
Before this day, I've expected my results might be better than last time...
But before that...
I'm truly happy to see back my old friends ^_^
All remain the same...
Nothing really changed
Except for the botaks :P 
So, the moment I took my results..
At first was quite looked down 
Since I've saw my BM got C+...
But to think further..
Actually it's quite average for my "lazy" standards...
My hardwork is indeed never wasted..
My Add Maths finally got A+
After so much hardwork I've suffered...
I'm satisfy about my own results...
And I'm jealous to that guy who got his results 9As :3...
Dafuq... Gotta kill him instantly.....

虽然这次的成绩对我来说廷hurt下的...
不过我想了再想...
都是因为自己以前不努力而造成现在的结果...
果然，我应该老早就相信努力是有好结果的...
不过最后都是迟了...
起码我没感到很沮丧...
只是...才2个A+...
好像有点不爽的感觉...XD
所以,以后要吃多点苦了啦...
在此,我有新的目标了...
那就是在courses考试的成绩里得到GPA 4.0！！
路，再惨都好...都是要过...
管你有脸还是没有脸
这就是这个世界的悲剧...
现在我正式宣布我终于毕业了...
现在酱由新的我来代替下一个任务...
现在开始，
你有你自己的路，
我有我自己的路...
有缘再见... 

Day After A Day

Days have passed

I'm still myself

I see a lot shadows 

I see a lot birds are flying 

Enjoying myself while listen to the music
I'm realize I've fucking camourflaged myself in da house
Dafuq, 2 weeks have never been out for events...
Hmm...
Guess I'm waiting for their return...

Taste of Humiliation

Human are not equal,
There's divided into several parts...
What is the point for human to live?
Human, bring their sins and leave this world...
And yet, the sins will repeated as long as there's human around this world..

Human...
The only source that have specific thinking other than animals..
What are them?
What are their roles?
Why they have different mind?

A high graded human versus a low graded human.
Who would win in a chess match?
For common sense, people would think high-graded human has a higher probability to win low-graded human...
But it's wrong way to calculate this situation.
Human may treated differently.
But they do have their potential on somethings.
High-graded human has more educations than low-graded
So that, people would think HG-ed human has more plots to conquer this match

But, what's a probability?
Probability is just like a percentage of something.
Although HG-ed might had higher probability,
But still he can be humiliate easily if he stepped a mine...
This tells that, over-confident people doesn't have an absolutely winning on anything...
It's just relaxed them and keep their guard down..
There's only a result,
Humiliation by others.

You're smart
Yet, you're still not prepare well to face something~
You're living better than me
Yet, you're still can't get the joy of mine
People with their own will is good,
But it doesn't means you have an absolute determination to accomplish something
If you're lose, then lose.
Lose with prides..
Win doesn't mean anything..
It's just a symbol of something that accomplished well.

Well, a human without the taste of humiliation
He'll won't know anything.
 

In The Town Of Incessant Rain

Rains non-stop,
Covered by tears,
In the town....

Where does the rain goes after it stopped?
They flow freely on the ground to anywhere they like...
And vanished...

And it returns again and again....
But they forget where are they from..
And the cycle appears.....

Deep Drive

One sentence that allow me to deep drive....
Deep drive to my limits...
It's time....

Valentine Day, a.k.a Forever Alone Day

Once again, this year's Valentine Day is going to celebrate with myself again :X
As winds blow, time will flows.
As time flows, your wind will disappear from my five senses...
Well, this day got nothing specials... 
But I'm quite curious about today's events with bunch of my sakai friends~ 
Sounds fun!~ 

Well, I guess I see through something from your sight...
I wonder it's true or not...
Hmph....
"If I can fly in the sky....
I might change my mind...
But when I changed...
It's too late"