Experience

Peeps say you'll know everything once you get experiences
True enough!!
Yet I don't even know why there's still have stupid peep who don't want to accept the facts and anyhow blame other peep or even teammates (-_-")

Seriously, as a side observer and player
I want to ask, do you ever know what is called facts and teamwork?
Ya, teamwork~ We heard that a lot and still they are peep who know how to being a selfish arse...

I'm not mad but in fact I've underestimated you once again..
We seek for improvement from every angle of us..
No, we don't know ourselves getting any improves or not..
It should be judged by other peep..
So don't get yourself over-excited...
For me, every since I know you until now~ You're still not changing yourself in an inch..
So don't spread to other peep that how awesome you're...
That's your world..
Don't always dream <3
We live in real world not virtual..
If future creates a virtual reality world, I'll go for sure..

Learn to become a kind peep...
Beat me if you can
Coz so far I'm the kindest and peace guy I've ever seen :P
I seek for peace, not wars..
If you tend to come with your fist, then I shall devour you and lapse in the hell (^_^)

One more thing..
Don't judge people with your own standard. 

Weak

Have you felt that yourself are the weakest?
I felt that I'm just a retard who gave up on everything other than my own life.
Every efforts that I've spent... and in the half way I gave up.. lol
Every time I see people can do something I can't. I always feel shocked and impressed...

Well... Actually people have their own abilities... For both strong and weakness...
From our side, maybe we're just saw his/her strength...but what if it's a weak side?
There's where climax always appear...
I have a lot fears since I was small...
So it's quite a big deal that affected the current me...
At least I accept the fact.. and continue live on...
One day.... or maybe...my potential will be revealed...
I really hope for that.. :D 

One shall never take things lightly...
It won't be end too soon...
A humiliation, I expect...

Side Images

If real world shares connection with the virtual parts....
How amazing it is...
Unfortunately no...
Everything inside virtual are just images...
Things you can see by your eyes doesn't mean it is belongs to real...
We never expect what will happen during future, we just predicted...

What human doesn't like to face, they will face in the reality no matter what...
That's a fact of this Reality world...
How many people... desire to live inside Virtual world?
Everything is impossible in this Reality....
Absolute inverse...

Human, never understand....
Although I'm one of them, yet I can't understand as well...
Too much emotions...
No passions of freedom....

My wishes....
Shall hidden in the mist of the grand sea...
No matter how desperate you wish for...
Will any wishes will be granted? 

The game being...

Game beings...
I wish to end it right now...

For being a defensive unit...
I have no right to judge it...

We need to see through ourselves....
There are winner and also losers as well....

Win or lose...
I don't care......

If we know where is our wrong point location...
Hope we know how to solve this miserable problem...

From now on...
Defensive unit shall awaits patiently....

Day 6492nd : The Night That Awakens..

It would be a freaking joke if I said I seriously counted the day by using a calculator...
I never expected, I've come to this world for 6492 days...
That's quite a huge number.... I guess?
Well, there were a lot people who came earlier than me for a distance of days...
Days passed without giving any notices...
When is the day that comes our life to an ending?
And actually... is that really an ending to us?
Or just a farewell from this world?

If I never mistaken about this,
Science says only Knowledge can proves us about these....
What the hell does Science related to these anyway?
There are a lot people who live in this world with us...
Although they look the same like us...
But each has different feelings....
Everyone has his/her own motivation to something since they are small....

What I remembered was my beginning stage until now....
A dream for future?
What will you be in the future?
Nobody knows....
Most of the people will say it depends on how hard you work for yourself during your premature session...
Yes, few days ago I heard someone around my age starting to fight for their future....
Sharing some information to us about his progression and a lot life process about his case..
What I learnt from him is actually nothing...
But I do admire his will against something that he desires...

The main thing is....
He says all the people in this world wants an absolute freedom.In this world, everything you desire...
Money always come first...
Without money, one will never achieve something that they really want to be...
Yes, that is Financial Freedom...
By just judge "Freedom" this word,
It's a paradise for everybody...
But... how many people really do that?
Rare enough.

I want to highlight something about "Financial Freedom"
If all the people really succeed this concept...
Then the developments of this world will not be improving...
If money are really easy to flow into a pocket...
Why there are people who are in poor condition? 
I admit it's correct for people who desire to enjoy "Financial Freedom"
But it is impossible to believe everyone can do it....

If it goes well....
Then our life doesn't have any awesome things to be happened...
I'm a guy who just desire my own happiness...
What I want...
I already have now...
But that is not all...
There are a lot of things I have not discover yet...
I do not request for being "Financial Freedom" for my future...
But I want to try something fresh about something interesting...
At least my life will never being dull....

Indeed, I have my own opinion..
And whenever there are any opinion opposes mine..
I'll just ignore or judge about it...
What I expect is logical and suit for myself...
Because no matter how awesome you are...
I'm sure that there will be a limit in your future...
That's why I never get impressed by anything unless they are really awesome...
Sentences cannot prove anything...
Do it with your bare hands...
I dislike a lot of people in this world...
But it doesn't mean I don't want communicate with them...

Why I dislike them?
Because they talk without using their brains...
Words are powerful.
Yet it's very dangerous...  
People never understand when they hurt someone...

Talk so much for what actually?
You already spoil your own image in my mind 
You disgust me seriously....
After so many days I've met you and yet your mind are still that immature...
Well, it's none of my business...
My words will always hidden in somewhere in my brain until there's someone willing to reveal it...
What I see, does mean what I know...
Maybe I have mistaken something about you?
I don't know and I don't really getting interested about you...
It's already over....


有改变还是没改变...就看你自己吧
因为我根本就不能证明你到底变了没有...
不过也没办法...我也不明白以前的我在想什么...
何况说未来的我呢? 
说真的...那就话说了出来...真的是有点后悔...
就算给我第2次机会...
我看我还是回去属于我自己的世界吧...
我的心,没办法了解一些我读不明白的董事...
希望....不...一点都没有希望...
如果历史重演....狠狠地揍我一顿吧 

Beyond my own lights
Last word
Just shut the fuck up about your bullshit-ing on somewhere I can see. 

Realistic

Have you ever know?
How realistic is the reality world is?

Do you ever know,
Snows will not come when there is no cold season?
If reality aren't realistic, a lot of virtual scene will appear.....
There are a lot of people who can't live in a reality world,
although they are currently lively in this world...

They pick their choice as they will only stick to the virtual parts of this world...
Many may say "If you live in a reality world, then why not you join to the realistic side?"
I am a person who lies between Reality and Virtual world...
My body is real but my mind is full of virtual image...


People are always like a mirror, it's like a weather...
We will not know when their mood expressed in what kind of condition..
Any condition will be in a probability to be happened...

People always think that when a statement is false...
They think it's wrong...
For some reason...
There are people who think about a statement cannot be judge neither true nor false....
People always make mistake...





















I admit I really like these two sentences...
Becoz it's from Shiori ^_^ <3
Well, her statement from my opinion is true...
If you had done a mistake...
You will never know how to solve that mistake...
It's because one shall never understand what is the thing he is doing...
Even though it is neither success nor failed...
Judge your mistake from people's mistaken
In order to acknowledge more about the reason of failing something...

But until then, me myself still do not really understand this statement...
I want to understand, but I do not have a chance since I always think people are way better than me....
Until now, I am still unable to confirm my own real aim...
Things are happened too quickly...
Emotions remains...
A lot dark scenes happen...
I don't really mind...
People always have multiple emotions...
They always hidden their original face...
Although I can see through...
But still, I don't like them as well....
What is the point of hiding your real emotion?
Nowadays I have started to show my own emotion...
The hybrid emotion between active and passive...
I prefer everything being soft...
But in this realistic world...
It is impossible to have this kind of life...
I've feel this world is quite pathetic....

Family, friends, enemy and those who act just like friends....
From that day, I've told myself...
I'll become a realistic person in friendship system...
To tell the truth, I don't like to cooperate the facts I don't like...
Why would I force myself to go into a dark abyss?
In this realistic world, being realistic is just such a common phrase.....
Things I cannot chase up, I won't chase up...
I do not mind I don't have many friends...
Because only pure heart are meant to be friends...
You hid your personalities, then I'll be the one who reveal it...
You judge me, I won't judge you with cheap style. 

Not the same.

Things are not same,
Conditions are not same...
Everything is not the same....
If it is the same....
Then why the life is difficult?
Mouth is just a thing to say everything possible...
If things are same....
Then "Action" means worthless...
Same? As long as there's human exists.
This word will never be appeared once.

I cannot accept such statement like you say.
That's why I cannot breathe in some specific place...
Me and you
Different world...
Understand your own position..
I chose my road...
When the time comes...
I'll see the outcome...
Words are words
Reality depends action...

That's why I hate you...
All the way...

-@.k.a~Chow~

Time did the Changes?

Nothing goes with the godly power.
Time, 
A only thing gives me a lot of fun, sad, mad, suffered and more feeling by all the time.
People always say, some people are depending time to change their own style.
Well, I'm not sure I am one of them or not~ 
For some, I'm sure of it feels that I had changed compare to my high school life.
Good or not? I don't know :3 
What I felt is.. Changes? Well there's sure have some...
Especially the mind thinking :X
I've avoid a lot things that I don't want to meet.
I had expected something would happen around me, 
and finally. It happened...
Well, it's true I like to join with my friends and talk all the way in our style.
But not all the time I like to talk with a same person with a same topic every time I met 'em.
It's bored seriously -____-"
You can talk to me, but not using the same topic to open ALWAYS...
Fucking bored and easily got pissed by someone else....


Some people, always want to be a loner,
But still~ Will have someone to join in and become a bastard...
Such noisy person...
Sometimes, I would trying to full ignorance to 'em when I ran out of my mood....
I want find a person with same thinking with me...
It's such been long time I never find a person to talk deeply...
Nowadays, people are harsh...
When they're getting older and older...
A lot of truths are revealed...
The more truths acknowledged, the more sorrows we're going to face...
Opinions from everyone are different
But when people get into a same mood, same result will be shown...
Reality is reality..
We cannot change the facts, but we change ourselves..
Select the one who be loner?
I hope I would...
This realistic world is too oppose to this sensitive "word"...
No matter how many times you join into that world...
You will dragged out to the original world...
I heard a lot undefined questions.....
Whenever I cannot solve these, I'll just avoid it instead...
It's a better for myself...
Rather getting insult by someone...
I don't really care... 

Human (2)

Everybody is not perfect.
Yes, no one is perfect.
But there are people who try to be one of them.

Majority says,
If one wants to be a loner..
Is it possible in between Reality and Virtual?
Human, who only know how to act themselves into another person to attract someone's attention.
They know how people see something when it is serious
But? How about we make a vice versa?
Can you withstand when someone trying to speak something you don't like?
Can you?
You can?
Fuck off, dude? Don't make me laugh.
You can do something harsh to people without thinking anything

And yet you say it's being too polite if we care about them?
Wow, how unexpected...
Same case apply but the target is you,
And you showing your shit attitude against us?

What's next? Expecting me to respect you?
Your balshit attitude is annoyed me.
I would rather fucking ignore you forever.
Don't show your bloody mood in front of us.
We're not going to care why the fuck you mad.
Settle yourself, bitch.
Don't always thought silencer don't give any outputs.
Our hearts actually is main core in order to make decision to give a fuck to this kind of bloody people or not.
If you can't play against me, don't play.
Just tell me the facts.
Don't always expect people would help you.
Do it yourself, asshole.
Know the difference.
If one mini thing can cause you become a heartless ass.
Yo, dude~ You're fucking dead.
I'm telling you.
I may be silence all the way, but it doesn't mean my inner heart didn't say anything
If this world doesn't have death rules.
I should probably make you suffer under my leg.

You moody is your fucking problem,
Don't show in front of me.
Justify your fucking problem before you use some negative sign towards us.
For once, I don't fucking accepting you as my real friend.
You do what, I'll avoid what.

For me, the so called "friends" in my life.
I hate each part of them.
Same as how you guys hate one part of mine.
Don't like me? Un-friend me.
I don't fucking want you to be as my "friend"
I don't care what happen against me and you
You don't disturb me, I won't disturb you.
Silencer rules: Fuck off. 

Human

Human.
How long you can maintain your purity? 

I see black skies,
With dark spots in front of me...
Calling me to jump into the Darkness.

Dance in the midst of mist 
Left out nothing...
Logic is true, but it won't last forever..

Don't repeat the mistake...
Learn from mistake...
Resolve it...
Be soloist..

Although is not everything...
Something is fixed..
Then it is permanent fixed...
Human's heart...
Kind or Evil?
Find out yourself. 

Pucked Day

Be a smart guy.
Not a shit guy.
Be a well-strategy one,
Not the fucktard one.
Know how to become a good host,
And not a tsk one. 
Make a difference between bullshit and excuse.
Can make it? Make it
Can't make it? Then fuck off.. don't act pro.. o0o

End of Paradise

It seems...
Nothing really changed...
All rightie~ Another day had passed
Unexpected things happened too...
My activities are paused by the "Cold Wars" in my house

My days are going to end...
It's time to wake up from my sleeping brain....
Well, things are really starting to gather up...
Events, schools, freedom and more..
Ma.. can't each of you guys just come one by one?

Hmm, one question from someone..
What's a "Secret Love" aka 暗恋..
For me, secret love is just a feeling deepen in the guy/girl you like in a temporary time...
That time you will be in a higher probability to fall for him/her...
Well, people always say...
Love is blind...
When it's clear...
It's a real challenge for you and your other side...

Well "secret love" isn't a true love...
It's just show that you have your own humanity to love/like a person...
It's quite common for everyone unless they're heartless or mindless....

It's been a few month...
I've been telling myself to close one of my eye on this case..
Yes, I really did it...
In fact, I'm feeling relaxed when I'm talking to you...
My talking style is back when I'm writing any sentence to you...

That day, Neo wrote something on our group chat...
He says that you're talking to me via a status? O_O
Does that true?
Do you really mean that shy guy was me?
Well....
I don't know what to say...
But..
Love this topic doesn't suit me yet...  :3...
I still need my freedom to accomplish something....
The things that pissed me off recently...
I'm learning new things everyday...
I'm training hard everyday...
Just to prove that I'm not a coward.

I'll send my regrad with this song

Chiisana Tenohira aka Song from Clannad

Far away, far away, the sea of rice plants wavers 
Raising the rice, raising the rice, we aimed for the memory 
Do we remember the sad things that have happened before today, or have we forgotten them?
Even in this tiny hand, there could someday be strength surpassing our own 
From the day I cried beneath the ripe grapes, I started to walk 
Even if my hand is small, even if we're separated, we'll walk this road 
And on the day that will someday come, we'll store away our best memories
The seasons change; already the cold wind 
Wraps around us and sleeps inside the song of that spring
Even in this tiny hand, there could someday be strength surpassing our own 
Those wet cheeks reflected a number of smiles 
Even if my hand is small, even if we're separated, we'll walk this road 
And on the new day we too stored away our memories
Even this tiny hand will one day pass by us 
And on the new day, a new season began 

Reality

Yep, the day has finally come
It's the time for we Ex- Form 5 to get our SPM results at our secondary school
Before this day, I've expected my results might be better than last time...
But before that...
I'm truly happy to see back my old friends ^_^
All remain the same...
Nothing really changed
Except for the botaks :P 
So, the moment I took my results..
At first was quite looked down 
Since I've saw my BM got C+...
But to think further..
Actually it's quite average for my "lazy" standards...
My hardwork is indeed never wasted..
My Add Maths finally got A+
After so much hardwork I've suffered...
I'm satisfy about my own results...
And I'm jealous to that guy who got his results 9As :3...
Dafuq... Gotta kill him instantly.....

虽然这次的成绩对我来说廷hurt下的...
不过我想了再想...
都是因为自己以前不努力而造成现在的结果...
果然，我应该老早就相信努力是有好结果的...
不过最后都是迟了...
起码我没感到很沮丧...
只是...才2个A+...
好像有点不爽的感觉...XD
所以,以后要吃多点苦了啦...
在此,我有新的目标了...
那就是在courses考试的成绩里得到GPA 4.0！！
路，再惨都好...都是要过...
管你有脸还是没有脸
这就是这个世界的悲剧...
现在我正式宣布我终于毕业了...
现在酱由新的我来代替下一个任务...
现在开始，
你有你自己的路，
我有我自己的路...
有缘再见... 

Day After A Day

Days have passed

I'm still myself

I see a lot shadows 

I see a lot birds are flying 

Enjoying myself while listen to the music
I'm realize I've fucking camourflaged myself in da house
Dafuq, 2 weeks have never been out for events...
Hmm...
Guess I'm waiting for their return...

Taste of Humiliation

Human are not equal,
There's divided into several parts...
What is the point for human to live?
Human, bring their sins and leave this world...
And yet, the sins will repeated as long as there's human around this world..

Human...
The only source that have specific thinking other than animals..
What are them?
What are their roles?
Why they have different mind?

A high graded human versus a low graded human.
Who would win in a chess match?
For common sense, people would think high-graded human has a higher probability to win low-graded human...
But it's wrong way to calculate this situation.
Human may treated differently.
But they do have their potential on somethings.
High-graded human has more educations than low-graded
So that, people would think HG-ed human has more plots to conquer this match

But, what's a probability?
Probability is just like a percentage of something.
Although HG-ed might had higher probability,
But still he can be humiliate easily if he stepped a mine...
This tells that, over-confident people doesn't have an absolutely winning on anything...
It's just relaxed them and keep their guard down..
There's only a result,
Humiliation by others.

You're smart
Yet, you're still not prepare well to face something~
You're living better than me
Yet, you're still can't get the joy of mine
People with their own will is good,
But it doesn't means you have an absolute determination to accomplish something
If you're lose, then lose.
Lose with prides..
Win doesn't mean anything..
It's just a symbol of something that accomplished well.

Well, a human without the taste of humiliation
He'll won't know anything.
 

In The Town Of Incessant Rain

Rains non-stop,
Covered by tears,
In the town....

Where does the rain goes after it stopped?
They flow freely on the ground to anywhere they like...
And vanished...

And it returns again and again....
But they forget where are they from..
And the cycle appears.....

Deep Drive

One sentence that allow me to deep drive....
Deep drive to my limits...
It's time....

Valentine Day, a.k.a Forever Alone Day

Once again, this year's Valentine Day is going to celebrate with myself again :X
As winds blow, time will flows.
As time flows, your wind will disappear from my five senses...
Well, this day got nothing specials... 
But I'm quite curious about today's events with bunch of my sakai friends~ 
Sounds fun!~ 

Well, I guess I see through something from your sight...
I wonder it's true or not...
Hmph....
"If I can fly in the sky....
I might change my mind...
But when I changed...
It's too late"

心の旋律

心の旋律, a choir song from an anime called Tari-Tari
It's an normal school-life anime
No fightning, no ecchi and no romance! (Well, there's just have a confession I guess o,o)
This song is quite meaningful to me
Because it's quite nostalgic
It lets me to imagine back my school life...
I've been keep thinking about it that,
why my life can't be like the one in Tari-Tari?
Friends with determination souls
Never give up
Always work together!
It's completely perfect to a person's life 
kaze  atarashiku  midori o kakeru 
doko made mo tooku  sumiwataru yo 
ima  karoyaka ni  hikari wa mawaru 
subete o yawarakaku  terasu darou

As the refreshing breezes rustle through the trees, 
everything in the distance comes into clear view. 
Now light is traveling nimbly in all directions to illuminate everything softly.hoshi sae mienai 
ame no toki de mo 
kimi ga yumemite'ru mirai wa soba ni aru yo
Even when it's rainy 
and not a single star is visible, 
the future you have been dreaming about will always be beside you.
itsu no hi mo utaou 
kono kokoro no mama 
hibiku yo  sora no mukou kanata madeLet's always sing 
freely with our heart. 
Our song will resound in the sky all the way to the other side.soshite mata dokoka de 
kimi ni todoitara 
omoidashite hoshii kagayaku egao de sugoshita hibi o
Then, when my song 
finally reaches you, 
I want you to recall 
the days we spent together with beaming smiles.
kaze  sukitoori  daichi ni soyogu 
yasashiku jikan o  tsutsunde'ru yo 
ima  odayaka ni  hikari wa sosogu subete o natsukashiku  terasu darou
As the clear breezes run across the land, 
they tenderly envelop the time we spent together. 
Now light is flowing quietly in all directions to illuminate our nostalgic past times.michi sae mienai 
yami no toki de mo 
kimi ga shinjite'ru mirai wa soba ni aru yoEven when it's dark 
and not a single path is visible, 
the future you have always believed in will always be beside you.
itsu no hi mo utaou 
kono kokoro no mama 
kanashimi mo koete iku tsuyoi koeLet's always sing 
freely with our heart. 
Our resolute voice will transcend any sorrow.kimi ga sono yuuki de 
ippo susumu toki 
omoidashite hoshii kirameku hitomi de sugoshita hibi o
When you, with courage, 
take a step forward, 
I want you to recall the days we spent together with gleaming eyes.
itsu no hi mo utaou 
kono kokoro no mama 
hibiku yo  sora no mukou kanata made
Let's always sing 
freely with our heart. 
Our song will resound in the sky all the way to the other side.soshite mata dokoka de 
kimi ni todoitara 
omoidashite hoshii kirameku hitomi de sugoshita hibi oThen, when my song 
finally reaches you, 
I want you to recall the days we spent together with gleaming eyes,kagayaku egao de sugoshita hibi othe days we spent together with beaming smiles.

A song with passion
Brings you harmony
I've wish to sing with you
No matter how hard it was :)

The Bravery

Just be who you want to truly be
There's not a thing that can't be done if you believe
If you'll only try, the sky's the limit
Don't listen to those who say,
"There's nothing someone like you can do
You're worthless through and through"

Let them talk, you're far from useless and weak, I know
You're the one who climbed to unreachable heights
Held onto your dreams so tight
And no matter what happened, you never let go

So, let your battle cry ring out through the sky
As long as you're alive
Though you might shed a few tears, 
Stand up, face your fears
And keep on going strong

Leave your worries behind, I'll be by your side
And somehow we'll get by
Come on now, let's run free,
There's so much world out there for us to see

Once again, I'm awaken in mist of road again...
I've know what should I do now...
Works, studies..... Doesn't matter...
I had say before that I want to change....
Yep...
I've been trying hard to change...
Becoz... I'll don't think you'll accept the current me...
Too passive :X
Or whatever...
I don't care either you accept or not...
I'm just want to have a new life :)
But... hope you would talk with me...
Someday~ 

A World That Never Was

People have own potential to have one attitude
But each attitude has been classified as Good or Bad
One may get good attitude or bad attitude as well
Which do you prefer?

January of 2013
This month would killed my attitude...
Early of this month was quite okay...
Not much different..
After since many have their works and studies..
While I'm still rotting in the house...
I wonder do they gave me some mentally pressure?
At middle of this month, I saw peoples' attitude changed...
Even mine as well
Well, I felt like I'm a selfish guy
The one who don't like to greet people
The one who don't like to tell others
The one who doesn't care about others things
Maybe?
I've experienced this pressure since I was Form 5
And I ever thought it has gone...
But still, it appears again...
What I see people posting, everything goes negative...
My mind just want to scold....
But come to think... It actually not my business...
Why the heck should I scold them?
Therefore, I've ignored these...

After few days of my researches, I found out something...
What I said that people who changed their attitude...
Actually it was me who keep changing my own attitude~
I'm wondering why these days I'll get mad easily...
Everyday someone called me, I'll just simply get angry in mind but say nothing...
I said myself was withstanding this pain...
From another side to think... I'll should scold out...
Does that?
Now I really hate the people around me...
They've just say their good....
Show-offing....
They even didn't think about why a guy who don't work during this holiday session...
Well, who cares?
I'm the one who want to wait driving license to work...
But, to tell the truth...
I'm predicting that even I got my license...
I'll have a hard time too....

I'm jealous...
I'm jealous the people who had their fun....
I'm jealous that the people who can work....
I'm jealous that the people can earn a lot moneys in this holiday...
What if? I do nothing at here.....
Ended up I've earned nothing...
I hate my own personalities...
I'm too quiet...
Maybe I've pick wrong decision...
My plan for this holiday was ruined....
Therefore... mental pressures live in my brain...
Tears are goona fall....
But I'm still not letting it to fall...
I can't....
Although they're really hurt....
I want to scold them...
But...
I can't find any wrong point from them...
I shouldn't say anyone was stupid..
Because I'm the only one who're being a freaking dumb....
Am I wrong?

I'm lost... in a maze that covered mist....
And damaged by traps....
I'm sick of it....
What can I do now? 

The 13th Reflection

What I can do that is worth for these 3 months?
My answers are keep reflecting from starter to end point...
Worth...
Do something really worth to me?...
Can I do something really worth without using "work" as a reason?... 

Stille Nacht

需要的时候，却不在...
不需要的时候，却一直在我身边....
你他妈的弄到我很没有心情...
 

Roses Are Colorful

Rose are red,
Leaves are green, 
Sky is blue, 
But I am black...

Rose are purple,Light is white,
What makes you feel of me? 
Shall Darkness covers your entire mind?
Or, stucked in between Darkness and Light? 
Life will change. 
Fate will change.
Everything will be change.
Trying to motivate my dream.
Instead of you :) 

Oh, my lord.
How should I do? 

第６夜．．

又是有关一些事而搞到我的灵感回来了．．．．
２０１３年．．．
果然不习惯．．．。
第一次向那么多朋友说＂３个月再见＂　
没有上课的感觉．．．
真的很不习惯．．
没有去兵营的．．．
就去上学．．不是上学的．．就去做工．．．
而我呢？只在家懂得吃喝玩乐．．
有时也会想．．为什么我住那么远？
想做的工．．都会有交通问题．．
好怀念以前的日子．．

最近心情很不稳．．
一时就爽，一时不爽．．．
前几天看见了某人的博客．．
它的内容．．
感觉上好像是在说着我．．．
但是我问他的时候．．
他却说可能误会了．．．
其实．．一个人猜测的话．．．
那个果然是在说着我和ＸＸ．．
不过我对那一个ｐｏｓｔ没什么感觉．．
不会生气．．
也不会介意．．．
有一点我很不明白．．．
我和ＸＸ的事．．
需要插手吗？
为什么．．
就因为你们认为我跟ＸＸ的感情不是很好就要来帮我？
我其实真的很不喜欢你们这样做．．
你们不是帮我．．
反而把我当成个废材．．
两个人的事情．．
就是要给那两个当事人解决．．
你们何必来插手呢？
我今天不是想骂你们．．
我只是想．．
无论我多想要一个东西．．
我都会靠我自己的能力得到她／它．．
就算是失败．．
我也不会后悔．．
帮了我，
就好像在考试上作弊．．
何必呢？
我虽然没什么介意．．
不过我的心依然还是很想揍人．．．
我不能说他是自作聪明．．
我也不知道为什么当初我会同意他的说法．．

烦啊～
这些事就是最烦的．．．
期待的东西既然得不到．．
有点沮丧．．
有时候真希望我失忆了．．
没有烦恼．．
只过着开心的生活．．
比起现在好很多．．．



爱与喜欢
喜欢跟爱．．．不是一样的字．．但意思很相似～
什么是爱？如果真的爱一个人的话．．我只会希望她能活得健康点．．我的期望不大．．能照顾你．．是我的荣欣．．虽然现在我只能劝你．．这也代表我对你的爱吧？对吧？　
喜欢．．喜欢一个人．．我只会做的事是欣赏她．．崇拜她．．想跟她拥有同一个梦．．

我相信我的心里不是喜欢的意思．．现在感觉不出你有哪点是可以崇拜的～～～你只会告诉我你的开心／不开心事～有时．．我都能猜到你下一句会告诉我什么．．

I don't care anything as long as you never cheat my feeling :)
Everybody has their own feeling..
Without feeling..
You're not even a human...
You're a freak...

Good Day?

Is it the time now?